A Big Risk

May 27, 2020

Let me give you a little background: My sister and I go to Hawaii annually to celebrate our birthdays, and when we were younger–which was a long time ago–we would travel. And one time, we went to this place in Pine Mountain, Georgia and went on one of the sun boats, which is a low boat with a sail in it. And were were out there and we were just rocking and rolling. Then we had to turn around and go back to shore. I was saying, “Come on girl, we got this, we got this!” And the boat flipped over. Mind you, I don’t swim, so I’m in total panic, and my sister, who is an excellent swimmer, she’s so busy laughing at me that she can’t even help me. I have this death grip on this boat and in order to get it back right so we can get back to shore, I had to let go so we could get the boat flipped. And between me and this death grip on this boat and her cracking up, we’re out in this lake. I was like, “Lord don’t let me lose my glasses because I did not bring another pair.” Now that’s the front story to this.

So we’re in Hawaii, and her goddaughter decides why don’t we do this group event called parasailing? And I’m like, “Uh, me, water, air? I really don’t think so.” But she had already paid for it, and my sister kept saying, “Well, why don’t you make your decision once you get there.” And I’m like, “Alright, I ain’t going up there, mm-mmm.”

Then they came and picked us up at the hotel and the young man that was driving was very calm, very reassuring. I’m still not convinced. We get out on the boat and I’m like, “Mmm, I don’t think so.” I swim a little bit better but that’s when I’m in water up to here. We’re talking about me flying over the ocean. Are you kidding me? I don’t think so.

First of all, the captain of the boat was a fine young man. That’s a different kind of story. Both of them, the captain and the crew member were very calm, very reassuring. They said they haven’t had an accident in ten years, no one has ever died. So I’m saying, “Alright, okay, okay.”

Of course, we’re the first ones to go up. So I just say, “Okay, I’m going to do it, I’m going to do it.”

“That’s me with a death grip on those wires. I’m saying, ‘I don’t care if you break. I’m not going to let go.'”

Eventually I did get to a place where it was very comfortable. It was very beautiful. They splashed us in the water. My heart was badoom, badoom, badoom, but eventually, and I think this was at the peak and we could see all the way up. We could see the ocean, the mountains, and it was just very, very peaceful and very beautiful, and surprisingly enough it was very calm. It was very calm. It was peaceful. But I do have to say I was very glad to get back on the boat.

What I learned from this experience was that I can’t let my preconceptions of what I can’t do stop me. I can’t let my fear of something stop me. Because, trust me, I was definitely afraid that something was going to break and I was going to drop down into that water. My sister’s a strong swimmer so her goddaughter would’ve had to be on her own because I would’ve had dibs on her: “No, I’m sorry baby, you’ve got to go. I appreciate it.”

It ended up being quite enjoyable and it’s on my list of things to consider doing again even though I still might be a little bit afraid. That ended up being a really wonderful experience.